Death Is Only The Beginning–Part 2

Weeks before my children’s father passed, my daughter called. She felt maybe my former husband was holding on because we had unfinished business? “Mom, do you want to come now to see dad? I don’t think there’s much time left.” I stayed quiet for an instant. I wasn’t sure. I then told my daughter to ask my two son’s as well as my former husbands sister who had been faithfully at his side. I wanted to honor their sacred space and not over step a boundary they may have created. My daughter called back within the hour. It was agreed I could come. I packed my bag and was on the road in 20 mins time. My sweet cousin was concerned and didn’t want me to drive alone in the late hours. We arrived and immediately I was whisked into the security area. My cousin stayed in the lobby of the empty hospital waiting patiently. As I walked into the ICU, my children’s father was heavily sedated. I stood by him, held his hand, in sorrow, but also a deep knowing that he chose this dramatic experience, on the spiritual level of my understanding. Why would anyone choose this? My spiritual sister believes that there was karma to be worked out and healed. In the scheme of things, I believe also this experience involves those connected. His lesson was part of their lesson.

As I stood there by his bedside, so many memories came flooding in. Questions and uncertainty of the past. Deep and long breaths in between the unfinished business thoughts and feelings. This release was long over due. Sadly, we could never sit down as mature adults and talk anything out. This approach wasn’t ever welcomed and I reluctantly honored it. I took a seat and  peered at the countless machines keeping him alive.

I began meditating. I then prayed. I asked for forgiveness–This is something that is encouraged in the spiritual circles. Even though there were unfinished mounds of situations and dialog that occurred in our relationship, but never a sorry uttered.  I waited to hear if there would be any communication from the ether’s  What I sensed, he was waiting for me to arrive. This could of been his sorry. Maybe the only way it could of ever happen on this earthly plane.  Nothing else was felt, other than he was winding down from a long and difficult 7 years of illness. I let everything from the past…go…

One week after his death, his services were set after the Thanksgiving holiday. I was sitting in the back yard, working on a project on my laptop. Suddenly, a strong feeling came over me. I was flooded with a memory and it felt like he wanted me to share this experience at his services. This long forgotten memory was not so pleasant at the time and took me a while to get over.  I’ve found, as we age, stories end up a part of our history. I let the ill feelings of this event go long ago, but wasn’t so sure to share it with a full house, those I haven’t seen in over 20 years. I struggled with this inner conflict , decided to pass and just share it with my children, when most appropriate.

At my former husbands service,I thought I would feel his presence and maybe hear something significant. My daughter kept asking but not one trace. After the service, it hit me. He wasn’t near his body, he was in the back of the room, watching from a far. This was his style. Even at my children’s sporting events, when they were young, he would stand afar, observing. I received no message, no sign.
When our body goes through a horrific illness or death, once we are on the other side, we are held in an amazing place for us to rest and heal, as the soul has a very deep imprint of the trauma.  Perhaps after he’s settled and gets connected, he’ll be back to heal some of his unfinished business.

I found it interesting that there was a physician in 1907, who preformed experiments to measure the soul weight. Dr MacDougall constructed a bed that had a scale. He measured the weight,before, during and after the death of 6 individuals. He found that there was an average weight of 21 grams lost at death. That’s about 2 1/2 teaspoons of sugar. Once someone leaves their body, the lightness has been highlighted after one’s NDE.

Larry, I wish you the lasting peace you yearned for in this life. My wish has always been that you grew closer to our children. That gift was accomplished. You’re now reunited with your cousin, Greg, who you adored and never really healed deeply from that sudden loss. So many of your friends and loved ones were waiting for your arrival, even my father, who you loved dearly. I now hope there’s an understanding regarding the countless life situations and lessons that seemed foreign to you when you were here and never resolved.

Until we meet again…xo

Death Is Only The Beginning…

When we’re faced with the death of a loved one, it’s almost like we’re emotionally shown a crossroad and given a choice. Last month,  I stood on the sidelines of my children’s father’s grave site, emotionally observing them, side by side, in a state of numbness and sorrow. What they experienced that defining day, was a significant event I instantly remembered when my own father died, at the ages my children are now. At that brief moment, I placed myself back in time and went through all the emotions, the uncertainty and the sensitive process of the experience his death provided long after. Death is for the living, not those who lay there coffined, a shell of a body. Their soul , now free, lifted, after the last breath, accompanied and transported to a place most have only heard about. Some, on the other hand, don’t believe in. Others, unsure. And then, there are those who have had NDE’s and are absolutely convinced heaven is in our future. I’m one of those.
It’s been stated and I’ve also experienced a few dozen times, the decease attend their own service and wake. Through the years, I’ve seen and felt many.  Messages have been given to me, sometimes apologies as most didn’t reach a clear level of emotional maturity and spiritual understanding while they were here. Some felt sorrow after they were shown their life review, I’m sure. So many asleep. Absolutely everything we’ve ever done here on earth, good and not so good, even things we’ve long forgotten show up during our life review and hits us right in the heart chakra. Every rock is turned over. We’re shown life situations but instead of looking through our own eyes and emotions, we go inside of the person we’ve effected. These experiences present themselves on a panoramic screen. The vast majority of living and breathing have no clue about their life review. I met a few who do not believe or care about knowing. If they did, I feel their choices and behavior would possibly change. Our world would become a better place, instantly! There’s chances while we’re here to correct the things we’ve done that are unkind.
To be continued…
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It’s Here-Dec 21st, 2012! What To Do Next?

It’s now Dec 21, 2012! We’re finally here! An epic point in time and there’s no turning back! A new beginning with magical possibilities!

Are you ready?

I read something this morning that triggered a past memory. When I was in high school, I was invited by my then boyfriend, to see “Hair”, the musical. I was simply amazed with the unique production as this was my first play ever. And what an eye opener!  It symbolized the hippy movement in a way I thought to be fascinating. I was grooving the music

When the moon is in the seventh house
And Jupiter aligns with Mars
Then peace will guide the planets
And love will steer the stars

when all of a sudden, the entire cast removed all of their clothing. I was stunned! I closed my eyes with disbelief as I had never seen  anyone’s naked body before. I peered at my then boyfriend, he was shocked too!  I made it through that part that defining day and all the other defining parts life handed me and here I am, reliving something that doesn’t really phase me anymore. What that song represented was a long distant future but it seemed like yesterday– the planets have all lined up….Will love steer the stars? Or, the stars steer love?

Pisces is moving out of our existence,  which was a  time full of competition, separation, into self and greed. Aquarius is the time when those things that seem to work in the Piscean age, will not work any longer. We are entering a time of collaboration, community, compassion, sharing and caring, like we’ve never seen before.

The psychologist, Alberto Villoldo, who has studied South American shamans for many years, stated that there won’t be any distinction between the inner and outer world. As many before him have also mentioned, we must change our inner world.

When we noticed  the world yesterday, ( I say yesterday, because today is a new day and filled with miracles)could we honestly stand tall, proud and say our world is a wonderful place to live? Not yesterday,when people are starving and being violated.  When senseless wars that have been backed by those who only care about  money and power.  How many of their son’s and daughters, as of yesterday, are on the front lines? How many of their loved one’s live in bomb infested communities and in fear daily?   Yesterday, how many were sitting in their cozy homes, eating  gourmet food and drink and not even a kind thought entered their minds about the thousands of children going hungry and the homeless in America  and other places?  One in six Americans go to bed hungry every day. What? Is that possible?  Is it just a rumor that people are living in tent cities all across America? Mainstream news stays clear of such things. I often wonder if those reporting the news really know the true story behind some of the stories? And if they do, is money the defining factor that they continue to stay silent?

Shelter, clean water, food and medical care is everyone’s human right. Aren’t we the richest country in the world? And what does this really mean?   Security, moving forward will not come from material wealth.  Lessons in security will be waiting  in the coming years. So many people have felt they’re protected from such things but those who have gone through that doorway know differently. Lessons are opportunities waiting patiently and these opportunities will help shift humanity to where it’s suppose to be. We need everyone’s assistance even the sleepy eyed.

 

Today is the beginning of a new life filled with blessings.

 

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Dec 21st 2012—- The End and The New!

 

Yes, you got it right!  This moment in history is when a large cycle ends and a new one begins.

Has anyone wondered why the Mayans chose this date? Was it because absolutely everything comes together at this precise moment in time? The time of winter solstice, where the sun lines up with the milky way galaxy? A very rare alignment and the ending on a 26,000 year old cycle….Farewell darkness. Hello light!

The Mayans, very wise, ancient ones. So many of their teachings reflected in the world’s spiritual insights.

The Golden Age is upon us–FINALLY! This truly has been a ride of a lifetime! A time of divine wisdom surfacing again! The Aquarian age is here. Piscean age was about religion. Aquarian, spirituality. Religion has separated so many people in the past. In fact, if we think about it, society has encouraged separation in all directions. Those encouraging this outdated teaching moving forward- will have a dwindling audience.

If you have the time during the next 3 days, it will be a powerful time to pray, meditate and place intentions. Millions are joining in and we will be heard! There’s a doorway opening at that precise time. I’ll see you there!

Blessings…

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Two Tragedies Called Sandy…

 

How can anyone make sense of what occurred a few days ago in Connecticut? Even the spiritually minded individuals are having quite a time with this sadness that took the lives of so many innocent people, including children who were new to this world, just six and seven years old. And, so very close to the holidays, their bright eyes full of joy and wonder. I cannot imagine. I truly cannot imagine. And then there’s Adam’s family, on the other end of this horror. The Lanza’s may find themselves as targets of those who cannot process the entire incident with an open heart. To be family on the other end, I cannot imagine either!

The first Sandy, created by mother nature. So much destruction to thousands of homes and property destroyed or damaged. Lives lost. These sorts of events are tragic, but we know as long as we live on this earth, mother nature will create this sort of havoc. This event forced people to help create community with one another. Was that the point?

The second Sandy horrific event, created by one young man who was possibly on mind altering prescription drugs- SRI’s, (serotonin reuptake inhibitors) which have had a hand in other murders. Columbine was one. These mind altering drugs wipe out feelings and emotions are confused. Some are OK on these drugs, but others are triggered and here we are dealing with the tragic results. Physicians are now giving SRI’s to 6 year olds. What? Months ago, I was listening to a few interviews of ex pharmaceutical reps who quit their six figure positions because their conscious could not take it any more. What they shared, I’ve heard too many times before. Large bonus’s to the reps to push drugs on physicians and a fair amount of physicians  pushing them to their patients, many to receive perks, like five star vacations and other material things. Is it necessary for children by five years of age to receive over 30 vaccinations? Some are triple dosed? Does anyone know what this does to children whose system is new to such things?  When I witness young mothers trusting their children’s physicians and not doing the necessary homework to understand what’s actually in these vaccinations and drugs potential effects confuses me. These women are educated in our collage systems and feverishly studied for exams to get their degree but they don’t do research for their own children? It’s like they’re hypnotized by the system. Do people realize, in Germany, a certain group receives vaccinations without the additives?  Is that possible? Do the research, it’s out there. And talk to pharmaceutical reps. Ask them if they vaccinate themselves and their children?  Its been stated, many, if not all, will not vaccinate themselves or their children. Is this true? Well, I’ve read and listened to a variety of interviews and talked to a few reps. Are they all fabricating this info? And why would they? You would think they would defend and protect their jobs?

Two days ago I listened to sweet little Emily’s father on T.V. as he stood holding back tears answering questions about his 6 year old who died in this tragedy. I couldn’t move. I just took all of his heartbreaking words into my heart asking God to send the angels to comfort the families.

I just read Lisa Long’s story! I’m so glad she’s speaking out!

 

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I am Adam Lanza’s Mother.

It’s time to talk about mental illness.

I am (Lisa) sharing this story because I am Adam Lanza’s mother. I am Dylan Klebold’s and Eric Harris’s mother. I am James Holmes’s mother. I am Jared Loughner’s mother. I am Seung-Hui Cho’s mother. And these boys—and their mothers—need help. In the wake of another horrific national tragedy, it’s easy to talk about guns. But it’s time to talk about mental illness

http://thebluereview.org/i-am-adam-lanzas-mo

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2012, End Times…Hate Lives On ” Labels” And Feeds Them!

In the wake of the devastation of “Sandy” we witnessed the transformation of the Governor of New Jersey, who is a true Republican and has been a very strong critic of President Obama. Mr. Christie shifted his demeanor to praise Our President recently. At the end of the day, it isn’t about Republican verses Democrat.  It’s about the true essence of  humanity, where we all need to be moving towards. I witnessed the action in my own family, arguing and down right being mean spirited, one against the other. I sat back and listened, with interest of where people are in their own belief systems. It also shows that the separation is deeply embedded within and I wondered if there would be any lighted openings in their lifetime? Chris Chirstie had a lighted opening. His lesson in this recent dramatic situation is an example for those who take “labeling” another seriously.

Who started this labeling habit that has separated people for too long?

He’s a Democrat so he must be this way. She’s a Republican, and she is that way.  She’s a Muslim and you know those Muslims. He’s a Catholic, and you know Catholics..? He’s a CEO of a company and has lots of money,  I’ll listen to him. She’s just a homemaker, and what do homemakers know anyway? He’s black, she’s white, she’s this, he’s that.

Is our society guilty of teaching these behaviors?

A human being is not their label. Labels began because there were/are those who wanted/want to separate people and situations. Labels have helped create our wars and encouraged religions to control their followers. I remember, as a child I wanted to go to church with my neighbor friend. I was forbidden to attend because it was against the Catholic religion. What? I never understood this man made rule. This wasn’t Christ’s teaching. I also remember working at Bank of America, many years ago, in a small Central Valley town, after moving from the Bay Area. I made friends with a lovely woman. One day I asked if she wanted to go to lunch? She looked at me puzzled. “I’ve been here 5 years and no one has asked me to lunch.” I was now the one confused ? “What?” We talked months later about this situation and it was because of her heritage. I observed many people who labeled and separated themselves. Yes, this was some years ago, sadly there are still millions with this surface mentality. When others do their inner work, label’s mean very little.  When someone carries label’s to extreme and is hate filled, I know they’ve not done the necessary work. Hate lives on the labels and feeds them.

If we are going to thrive as a society, we must look deeper and do some serious work to remove the embedded “label” mentality.

I wasn’t happy about Obama’s last 4 years. I notice changes but not for the better. President Obama made huge promises 4 years ago, those 4 years are up, Mr President. It’s time to make good of the commitment made to the American people. Yes, there was a big mess before you arrived, but now it’s time to show the people what you came to do. And yes, I don’t think you had any idea what you got yourself into.  May the out pouring of heartwarming assistance given to the Easterners trickle down. And may this be the beginning of what 2012,the end times, are all about….Mr. President, it begins with you…

 

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The Great Disconnect–Trayvon Martin & George Zimmerman

I’ve sat back and listened to both sides of the media’s view on the Trayvon Martin and George Zimmerman case and noticed how this story transformed within no time. I first viewed the photo of Trayvon and observed the innocence surrounding this young man. My thoughts went to judging George Zimmerman who shot Trayvon. I also wondered… “What in the world did Trayvon do ( if anything) to provoke such a confrontation?” A few days later, more photos of Trayvon emerged and additional information about this young man came forward. What happened to Trayvon’s beautiful light that was in the first photo? Why would the media plaster the first old photo on every news channel and on the internet when Trayvon was only 13 and not a recent photo? Is that fair? Doesn’t the media have a responsibility to the public? There was a significant shift in photos- in my opinion. Is it the music these children listen to? Is it peer pressure, drugs, divorce, other outside influences? A combination? Was George Zimmerman fearful from the get go? No one was there to witness this unfortunate crime. It seems—- George Zimmerman made some decisions that were not for him to make?

I was talking with a client last week, who has a non profit, teaching children/teens life skills through dance. His revolutionary program is a healthy avenue to instruct children/teens, espy at risk, how to shift their behaviors by teaching life skill tools. I brought up the fact Travon’s photos showed something significant had changed. Would Trayvon still be a live today if he resembled the first photo that fateful night? Was Trayvon at risk? Has George had any life skills training?

I was stunned some of the black community came marching out to proclaim their position. Again, here we go, one side against the other. When will this ever change? It’s not about black or white. It’s about yet another tragedy that could of possibly been handled differently. How in the world are we going to live in peace in this world with leaders and some of the nation not looking at this on a higher perspective? Maybe they should sit down with my friend Aba Gayle, whose young adult daughter was brutally murdered by a man out of his mind on drugs. Talk to Aba Gayle about how she took another approach and maybe she can be a mentor. Talk to Aba Gayle how she found peace by soul searching and by shifting hatred to forgiveness. Talk to Aba Gayle and listen as she shares her selfless work within the prison walls to help inmates grow past old, outdated and truly spiritually immature behaviors our society has indirectly fueled for too long. Aba Gayle, probably part of the small percentage of humans at this time evolved enough to get to this place. And it would be a good idea if many of these leaders take a life skill course.

What I’m really, really sad about is that 2 families are forever changed by the choices made that fateful night. Two families who love their children and now deeply plagued by something that could of been resolved if both of these young men had the proper life skill tools to resolve issues peacefully.This is the true disconnect. A great example of what is going on on a larger scale.

There is a huge opportunity for many to help create the changes that are long past due. Will these two families eventually join Aba Gayle’s lead and participate in some way? I wonder what Trayvon is now feeling and thinking? In heaven, peace and love prevail! Will we ever get to that place on earth or do we need to wait until we die?

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Consciousness Rising

2012 will be one of the most significant years in the history of the
world! Already it’s unfolding dramatically. The worlds
entire economic structure is dismantling, with over 300 bankers
stepping down from their posts, world wide.

The notion of disclosure could be a topic soon to be discussed
by President Obama. It’s about time as the sightings are picking
up speed and there’s no denying any more. In fact, other countries have
admitted and questioned the U.S. for it’s decision
to hide the truth. Why have they been hiding it for so long? Is it because
there’s many more things attached to this secret? And if this comes out, what else
will they have to reveal?

I’ve been to Brazil twice. The UFO topic is an open book. Stories pour
out of Brasilians mouths like it was normal. I was amazed how open and
matter of fact they were about this subject.
Here, most mainstream people do not want to talk about such things.
In fact, there are those who think it’s science fiction. And there are those
so enthralled with their own material world, they simply do not care.Many years ago,
this was also a part of my mindset, but it all changed when I had my
first encounter. Actually, I thought I was visited by a Saint. And then, I had a
second, third, fourth, fifth visitation. I don’t know how many times I was visited
at this point. Was it a Saint? I’m not sure. I have my theories.This became normal in my life.
I only told a handful of close friends because most in mainstream believe this is absolutely nuts. In the very
beginning, I thought I was losing my mind as well, but the visitations
continued. I had no other symptoms of being whacked and just carried on,
curious about each encounter. It’s been over 30 years of visitations. And it wasn’t just
one type of being. There were a different one’s from different places, I believe.

About 9 years ago, I got a hold of a woman from Australia
who was writing a book on abductees and contactee’s.
I told her I thought I was a contactee.She wanted me to take a quiz she
developed. My test score was close to 90 %. This test forced me to go back in
memory to my child hood. Things occurred that I forgot about. I’ll share only a few. One, I
had extreme nose bleeds. It was very dramatic as they wouldn’t stop for
hours. My father also was plagued by nose bleeds. No one else in my family, which
included 4 siblings and my mother. This was one of the questions on the
quiz. I wondered if my father was visited as well but he passed away
years before I began questioning things.Also, I was a sleep walker as a child and teen. A few times
I caught myself ready to jump out my bedroom window. I had taken the screen
off and I was standing in my P.J.s ready to jump out. It must of been 3
in the morning both times as I remember. This was disturbing! I also found myself a few times
suddenly awake, stunned, in different areas of our home.The mystery,
how many more times did I sleep walk without waking up? This was another
question on that quiz. I never thought about or questioned any of this,
but after many visitations, I couldn’t ignore it any longer. It seems like I was
pointed in certain directions to explore more. When
I was married, I freaked out my former husband a few times as I would
scream as I sat up in bed, while the being would be standing in the
corner, observing. This monk like being would watch me for hours. I watch
him as well until a deep sleep came over me and I couldn’t stay awake any longer.
He stood in the same corner until we moved and then he chose another
corner in the new home. The being was always standing in a corner. He was
peaceful and unassuming. I never felt threatened but the first few times it
was a bit freakie as it was not something most people would experience.
I then divorced and moved to a completely different city, the monk being showed
again but this time with another. And this time it was different. This time
there was communication. Will writeabout this at another time.

It has been said the sixties was just a trailer for what is to come in 2012. At
the end of the sixty’s I was a teen. I was not a part of the hippy movement
per say, yet I was amazed with what was occurring. This generation got
things rolling and now we are here, at this place, wondering what’s next?
The surface of life is losing its grip.

Yes, we are in interesting times. More and more to come pouring out.

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Whitney Houston Has Now Found The Greatest Love Of All!

Whitney Houston’s voice was coined angelic. I remember way back when, two of my children were involved in a play, at their school, that won a Disney contest and were chosen out of dozens of schools, in Calif, to perform at Disneyland. The theme song, “Greatest Love Of All.” When at DisneyLand, in one of their large conference rooms, looking upon the children on stage, as they belted out this incredible song,there was not a dry eye in the house. Whitney Houston, maybe without knowing the true effect, inspired many people, including children. I’m forever grateful! That song will continue to spark a rich and wonderful feeling within me, not only because it was a incredible moment in my children’s lives, I was blessed to be a part, but a song so extremely powerful, to this day brings tears to my eyes.

Part of Whitney’s destiny was her captivating musical voice. The other, spirituality. If she traveled down that holy path, things would of been much different. Drugs and alcohol open our souls to many undesirable things. And those things can take over one’s life in a big way. I personally feel this is what happened to this lovely soul.

It has been written that the days before Whitney’s passing, she was preoccupied and felt her time was coming to a close. Whitney could of developed her 6th sense throughout her life, but the mask of drugs and alcohol misdirects those who are thrown into that whirlwind of confusion.

Whitney’s musical effect on the masses has been quite evident in the days following her departure from this life to the next. She had her life review, in full 4d spectrum. I’m quite sure Whitney knows now what she missed and what she could of done better. She also witnessed the wonderful moments as she touched many lives. Even those small town schools, tucked away, surrounded by farm fields, who incorporated Whitney’s songs in their musical plays. Yes, she was probably shown snapshots. Spirits usually stay until they are buried. Whitney also witnessed the out pouring of those who honored her gift and I suspect it was a very emotional moment. She is now basking in “The Greatest Love All.”

May your new journey be one of wonder and learning, Whitney. Blessings.

Those who read this, please keep Whitney’s daughter, Bobbi Kristina in your prayers.

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Are You The Hundredth Monkey?

In 1952, on the island of Koshima, in Japan, scientists observed monkeys washing sweet potatoes and gradually this new behavior sweeped to the younger generation of monkeys. Once critical mass was reached, the “hundredth monkey” this learned behavior spread across the water to monkeys on nearby islands, according to research on Wikipedia.

Interestingly, they are calling it a phenomenon, in which learned behavior spreads instantaneously, escalating of an idea or ability to the remainder of a population, once a certain portion of that population has heard of the new idea or learned ability. This story originated with Lawrence Blair and Lyall Watson in the late 70s according to Wikipedia.

Ken Keyes wrote a book, the Hundredth Monkey, about the effects of nuclear war on the planet. Keyes penned a parable on the hundredth money effect applying it to human society and positive change. I found this fascinating to the degree that Egypt began the “hundredth monkey” movement and Occupy Wall Street has caught it!!! I listen to a video this morning of a young reporter, Luke Rudkowski, being interviewed at the movement on Wall Street. I was so moved by his passion and dedication for change! I wrote in one of my blogs that I wanted to chat with someone from this movement as most young people that I know do not have this passion or commitment. This was the next best thing!

Yes, change is in the air and many before me have said it’s a great time to be alive as this will be something that will go down as the most pivotal time in the history of the world.

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